Why I ditched my FitBit, and my Scale.

As crazy as it sounds, I decided to leave my FitBit at home, and hide the scale in the garage. Why you ask, simple - they are driving me to eat more!

But let me back up and talk about a friend of mine, we will call her Donna. You see, Donna likes instructions. She loves being told step by step what to do, and when she makes a mistake, she goes back to the instructions and gets refocused. She LOVES the 21 day fix because it tells her what she can eat each day, how much to eat, and what fitness routine to do. She can follow instructions well, and thrives off of them.

The key to Donna's success is that when she makes a mistake, she just gets refocused and then carries on with her journey. Me on the other hand, if I don't follow it to a T, well forget it I might as well start over. So let's bring this to real world. I am following a new "plan" of eating and fitness and at work, someone decides to bring in home made chocolate chip cookies ( my favorite!). If I were Donna, I would sneak a cookie, but keep on track for the rest of the day. But nope, I am me, and I have many cookies, followed by a fast food dinner, followed by ice cream because tomorrow, is a new day. YIKES! And the scary part is, tomorrow is sometimes next week or next month. And it's not just eating, I am the queen of saying, I will work out later, tomorrow, next week, this weekend.... Can you see how this can drive a girl mad?

Then to put the icing on the cake, my FitBit tells me I am no where near my step goal for the day and my scale reminds me that I should have stopped at just one cookie, like Donna. And this, makes me spiral even more out of control with self hate which leads to more laziness and over eating.

So I have a new attitude. I take each decision as it comes. I make a decision at breakfast and tell my self it does not dictate what lunch is like. Then I make a different decision at lunch, and again tell myself that it does not dictate dinner and so on. I don't have a specific eating plan I am following. I try to move more than not and eat when I am hungry, and with conscious and healthy food choices whenever possible. 

I refuse to beat myself up over a cookie on a special occasion, or missing a morning work out. I refuse to get on the scale and be tormented by lack of progress and the last thing I need is my FitBit telling me how awesome my friends are and how low my score is for the week.

It's only day 2 and for once I feel good about this. It's possible that the weight won't come off as quickly as when I "follow a plan" but as long as my clothes continue to fit better and I feel good about my decisions, overall, then I know I am on track.

I will keep you posted on my progress!